fallen leaves

you long for the big smiles

but are faced with cold shoulders

you long for the butterflies to swirl your stomach

things don’t work as planned

and, you are settled with fallen leaves

and, as the sun rises

and falls

you start to forget the small things in life

from saturday family reunions

and each moment of uncontrollable laughter

to the sun tickling your cheeks

and soothing tea

while hearing the birds chirp on repeat

these are what crafts that safe feeling

but even with all the little safety pins

you ignore everything

because that one thing that is everything to you

is lost

the time starts to consume you

but you won’t let it

something is different this time

you start to bring up the jokes that are so bad that they are actually funny

you start to notice the color of fallen leaves

and the unpredictable way the sun melts into the skyline

you long for nothing more than for things to return to normal

you want it so bad

but the moments pass

and you get caught up in life’s unfair qualities that you forget to look around you—

everything you longed for was here all along

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